Surgery day 37: busy, busy, busy

Hey guys! Ok don't hate me because it's been like a month since I last posted. This past month, I have been crazy busy with band practice and volunteer work (needed for school), summer homework (the work of the devil). As far as my face goes, the swelling is nearly gone; there's only a little bit left in my chin. As far as how I like it goes ...I'm not sure. My face is now definately longer and more angular than before and I'm still not quite used to it. 

Please excuse my sweaty, tired look. I'm currently on break working at a skate park that's at least 100 degrees. 

But anyways, I do think my perception of myself will improve once I get time to get used to the new bone structure and get all of the hardware out. Speaking of that, tomorrow is my 6 week checkup! (Well it's a couple days early but it's all gonna be ok) and at this checkup, the surgeon will remove my giant splint. THANK THE LORD. My new nickname probably will turn into "lipsy" if this thing stays in any longer. Not to mention it'll be 10x more comfortable without a giant plastic mouthguard in my mouth.

This is not ok.

In addition to this magic, as of the coming Tuesday, I will FINALLY be able to eat regular food. Chicken, cereal, Oreo's, and every other not soft food that I have been craving can finally be eaten! No more oatmeal every breakfast or smoothies every lunch. I now can and will eat whatever I please (well except for really hard stuff). Yessir, this week will be a good one.

See you next time 

Surgery day 19: smiles all around

Woohoo! Look at that smile! The swelling and stiffness has significantly decreased and I can now smile without looking like a weirdo circus clown. Not much has change since I last blogged, except I had a garage sale today and I spoke so well that everybody understood me without question! Yup, today was a good day.

Surgery day 15: long time no see

Hey guys! Sorry again for the accidental hiatus. Now that I'm actually going out in public and hanging out with friends, I forget to post all of the time. 

So yesterday, I just passed my 2 weeks mark and I'm feeling pretty good. This is what I look like now.My cheeks and jowls (I hate that word) are still swollen, but it's definately gone down since I last posted. My main problem now is stiffness. In my lower cheeks, jawline, bottom lip, and chin, I have a lot of stiffness that restricts me from smiling, eating, and talking normally. I'm trying to use heating pads and massages to loosen everything up, but so far it hasn't changed much. 

Surery day 11: fat booth

Hey there! So great news: my bottom lip is almost down to its normal size! I would be more excited except the rest of my lower face is still pretty rough. You guys remember that hilariously popular app "Fat Booth" from a few years ago? Well that's what I look like today. Normal me put into Fat Booth. 

The scarf helps to proportion it better, but regardless of how chubby my face is, it sort of looks like a normal face. Because of this, I'm making my first public appearance at the mall today. I debated wearing a surgical mask to hide the swelling, but I figured that the mask would bring more attention to me than my fat face. 

Other than my appearance, I'm feeling incredible! Yesterday was the first day that I met my caloric goal and that was due to the wonderful fact that I can now take out my elastics and eat mushy foods. It felt amazing not having to drink through the spaces of my teeth! For breakfast this morning, I had eggs and a very thick smoothie and I actually got full! I'm going to be loving this new diet. 

That's all for now, wish me luck at the mall.

Surgery day 10: things just got a lot easier

Oh my god guys, today was a very good day. I just got back from my incredibly good checkup. Here's what it went like:

First, they took off my bandage! It felt amazing to finally have almost full movement of my neck again! In addition to this, the doc said that the swelling in my lip will now start to go down a lot because the fluids can drain out now that the bandage is gone; he thinks the swelling will be almost gone in a few days!

Next, they removed my stitches, which is awesome because now I can stop worrying about them when I wash my face and sleep.

Then he took off my elastics and let me brush my teeth. I was so excited except, when I tried to brush, I realized my jaw wouldn't open wide enough for the toothbrush without locking up. I eventually squeezed the brush in there but I couldn't do very much. This kind of discourage me because I really needed to brush, but it was all ok because the doctor said that I only have to wear 2 elastics now and I can take them out when I brush and eat! You will not believe how good this news is! He also said that my jaw pains will get better and my mouth will start to gain full motion again once I start stretching the muscles, which I can now do because I can take off my elastics. 

Then he told me that I can now add soft, no chew foods to my diet including mashed potatoes, scrambled eggs, and maybe even some pasta! I was about to start singing out of pure joy when I heard that.

 The whole visit finished off with him telling me that I looked great, my bite looked beautiful, and my chin will look stunning. 

This past week was pretty miserable, but it is already worth it. Now seeing my face with this bandage off, I can tell a huge difference.

Alright, maybe I'm still a little too swollen for you guys to tell, but the difference is amazing.

Surgery day 9: accidental hiatus

Hey guys! Long time no...write. Sorry for my little break in blogging; it was due to a combination of losing track of time and procrastination thanks to Netflix. Anyways, recovery is going great! I am now officially able to drink from a sippy cup rather than a syringe and swelling has gone down considerably! 

Even my bottom lip has started to deflate!

So right now, I'm in a hotel in Dallas (where I had my surgery) and tomorrow I have my first post-op appointment where I finally get this bandage off! I'm so excited to finally be able to regularly wash my hair and face again! Other than this, not much has changed since the last post except for the fact that I'm craving real food now more than ever. Seriously. I have a Pinterest board titled Stuff I Can Eat When I'm Done With This Stupid Liquid Diet full of recipes and delicious looking food. Why do I torture myself?

Surgery day 6: so much progress

We'll it's technically day 7 due to the fact that it's 12:09 as I type this, but I haven't gone to bed yet, so technically, it's still day 6.

Again, today was a good day; the main reason for this is because my swelling continues to get significantly better. My eyes are pretty much back to normal and my top lip is about half way there. 

If you'll notice, the brusing on my neck and cheeks is getting worse, but it doesn't bother me that much. If you'll also notice, I REPLACED MY BANDAGE AND WASHED MY HAIR. We'll I guess you couldn't see my hair, but anyways, my parents forgot that they gave us another head bandage so that I can wash my hair and change it, but I could only do this once and had to be very careful and may need to see a specialist in our area to help. So I figured today would be good because it's just a day over the halfway point to actually getting the wrap removed on Friday. The hair washing was amazing, but I was really excited about getting a glimps of my new lower jaw and chin, and let me tell you, I was a little freaked out. It looked...strange. I know that it's hard to tell because of all the swelling, but my chin didn't look that much more foward rather then deformed. I would panic but in just about every single blog I've read or video I've seen, the people always say that it's going to look very strange during the healing process, but you'll never know the actual result until you're fully healed. Which is very reassuring. 

And speaking of the healing process, feeling is definitely trying to return to my chin; I've been feeling lots of tingles and, unfortunately, sharp little shots of pain. 

I also have a new worry: weird pain inside my mouth. 

I noticed it yesterday when my tongue felt very rigid and it felt like I had scratches on the roof of my mouth. Then today, when I tried to drink my orange juice and later on my tomato soup (I'm thinking anything acidic) it burned my tongue, roof, and even my throat. The rigidness of my tongue is worse, too. If you've ever had an orthodontic appliance in the roof of your mouth (like an expander, retainer, etc.) and sometimes you wake up in the morning to find that you're tongue was mashed up against the appliance all night, and now you're tongue feels like its coated in gravel, then you know how I feel. Except, there's nothing on the roof of my mouth; not to mention the feeling of little cuts everywhere. I don't know if this is dehydration, something not right with my diet, or just the fact that I can't brush my teeth, but it's getting very uncomfortable and making it hard to eat. I'll probably do some research tomorrow and see what I can find, and if I turn up with nothing, I'll email my doctor. 

That's it for now, can't wait to see what kind of progress I make tomorrow!

Surgery day 5: out of the house!

So today was significantly better. The swelling around my eyes has drastically gone down and my cheeks definately look less fat. My lips haven't gotten the memo however. So that's what I look like today (you can see my greenish bruising on my neck and cheek) and if you'll notice, I'm in a car! Today I finally got out of the house! Well only for 15 minutes to go get some yummy soup from Mcallister's with my grandma, but still. It feels good to get out. On a more serious note, I'm having two major problems right now. Weight loss and possible infection. Let's start with the first. Going into the surgery, I was 101 pounds (I'm very petite, mind you) and as of now, I am about 94.8 pounds. I knew that I was going to lose weight, but due to my already low numbers, this much is no bueno. I have already noticed that I'm starting to look like skeletor and I've also been getting colder easily. I'm trying to reach my calorie goal of 2000 but it is very hard when you're trying to syringe feed liquid through your foul tasting mouth into a nauseated stomach; that is if you can not let it seep out of the gap that my catipillar lips create. 

Optimism, optimism. 

So anyways, I'm trying to start counting my calories and try and try to get closer to my goal.

Now onto the infection.

I say this because that gross smell that moved into my mouth a few days ago has very much intensified into a sour, awfully putrid odor...and taste. Also, whenever I try to brush my teeth, there is an extremely tender spot right underneath my bottom teeth. No matter how much a brush or use my medicated mouthwash, the smell never leaves. I don't have any fever or visible pus yet, so I'm trying not to panic, but I will be watching very closely. 

That's all for now guys! Sorry for such a long post. 

Surery day 4: feeling better

Sorry about yesterday, I now realize that post was kind of depressing. Anyways, today started off bad, but I decide to stop feeling sorry for myself and turn it around. Let's start off with why I was upset this morning. I was upset because when I looked in the mirror this morning, I saw this. 

Yes my right eye was completely swollen shut and the left eye was just about there. I started crying. But I told myself "this is just a part if the healing process, it will get better" And it actually did. I drank an entire bottle of Ensure today in one siting, not to mention soup, a milkshake, a smoothie, and even some hot chocolate. To add to this, I only had I take my pain medicine twice today in comparison to every 4 hours. Around noon I decided to try and brush my teeth, and it worked. I had to use a little baby toothbrush and I'm only able to brush a few teeth, but my goodness it felt amazing. Around this time, the swelling actually started to go down! My eyes opened up and my cheeks depuffed a little bit! I was so amazing at how fast I went from looking like I did this morning, to looking more like i did on day too (except for the lips, those are still as huge as the first pic). Bruising also started to show up today; parts of my cheek and my neck are this weird greenish color. Still to light to really notice, but bruising is a good sign of healing. Last night was also the night that I pretty much slept throughout the night; although still no luck with the uncontrollable drooling due to the fact that I have a gaping hole between my lips that I can't close right now. But I really don't mind the drool all that much because most of the day, I'm sitting comfortably in a recliner watching Netflix and keeping the drool where it belongs. 

I felt much better today, and I'm sorry for freakish anybody out with my last post. This whole thing is sort of an emotional roller coaster, but if you keep fighting and keep yourself very busy, you'll find that it is much easier to get through the day. 

Surgery day 3: spoke too soon

So yesterday sucked pretty bad. But I kept telling myself that tomorrow is going to be a lot better due to the fact that the swelling shouldl begin to go down. I was wrongly mistaken. 

This is what today looks like.

I have no idea why I'm this swollen, because they didn't even touch my top jaw, yet I'm so swollen I can barely open my eyes. I have a theory that it has to do with this head bandage; maybe it's making the swelling much worse than it needs to be for some reason. If that's the case, then I'm in for a long, miserable week because this thing isn't coming off until Friday. As in 7 days from now. I forgot to mention that because of this bandage, I cannot wash, brush, or do anything to my face and hair. Plus I can't brush my teeth yet because the swelling is just too bad and my mouth is starting to grow a new species in there. This, of course, makes me so nauseous that I dont want to eat because it makes everything taste like the taste of my mouth. 

Several times last night and this morning I have said to myself "I can't do this". I'm getting very discouraged right now and all I want to do is just rip off this stupid bandage, take out this awful splint, tear every single one of my elastics off, and just pretend this whole surgery never even happened. But obviously I can't. So I'm just trying to get along one day at a time and tell myself that today will be better. I just don't know when that is actually going to start being true.

Surgery day 2: the peak of swelling

Man am I glad to be home, no more elevated beds, no more nurses checking on me every 6 seconds, however I do miss my suction thingy. Anyways, this marks about 48 hours after the surgery which equals the peak of swelling, and I am feeling every last bit of it. I got so discouraged this morning because I couldn't get a smoothie down because the swelling was so bad. I tried and tried but it would just fall right out of my lips or suffocate me. Needless to say, I had to give up on my big breakfast this morning. After that, everything kind of went downhill. After taking my pain medicine, I had some awfully strange dreams that led to me waking up about every 20 minutes in a drooling fit. Also, I found out that we couldn't get a post-op checkup date until next Friday, which means I have to wear this god forsaken bandage for 8 more days, and now, due to my massive swelling, the bandage is about 50x more uncomfortable. 

As you can see, bruising has started to kick in, which makes me now feel pain in parts of my face and neck that I couldn't feel before. 

So today has probably been the worst day yet, mainly due to the swelling, but I'm really trying to stay as positive as I can through all this. 

Day 1: Going home

So we finally got discharged from the hospital; they said I was doing very well and everything looked great. You know, if you count this as great. 

Ok so I know that I look like absolute crap, but it really doesn't hurt at all. The worst part of it all is all of the bandages and the splint the have in me right now. The purpose of these is to keep everything steady and to retrain my muscles to hold my new jaw in place (because apparently they were all sorts of wrong), however, this means that I will be barely able to get food past my teeth until my check up in 1 week. They will definitely remove the bandages at this time and maybe the splint too. 

Other than that, the only thing I'm worried about is the 5 hour car ride home that I'm about to have to endure after we get all of our prescriptions soon. I'm hoping I'll just sleep the entire way, but I course, this will be very difficult due to the fact that everything is just awkward and inconvenient right now. 

Surgery day

Disclaimer: I apologize for any typos or nonsense, for I still am pretty loopy from the morphine.

So today I had orthognathic surgery (jaw surgery) and a geinoplasty (chin augmentation). So whenever I woke up from this surgery, I immediately thought "why the hell did I do this" and to be honest, I'm still having those thoughts. It's been about 6 .5 hours since my surgery and my mouth still us bleeding pretty badly. I have to use one of those dental suction thingies to to drain out blood about every  3 minutes. I did have some pain in my jaw joints (no doubt due to my tmj issues) and I also experienced pain right underneath my chin. As far as swelling goes, the top part of my face is completely normal, however right at my bottom lip and below, I'm a blueberry. Except you know, not blue.

See what I mean? 

 The worst part for me right now is the discomfort, blood, and my hunger. I have not had anything since 11:30 last night (now 8:45) and my stomach is making noises like it's being totrtured. They gave me a cup of water to try to drink out of, but honestly I scared. I have no idea how in the world they expect me to drink that because it literally feels like I don't have a bottom jaw right now. But I'll give it a shot because my throat definitely needs it. 

Well that's all for now, I'll try to update tomorrow, but if I don't, except one soon :) 

Back from the dead

Hey guys! It's been a while, huh? So my skin has been looking awesome for those of you wondering; I literally only break out a few days before my period and that's it. In other news, my big surery is coming up in 2 weeks, on July 8th. I'm having orthognathic surgery, aka jaw correction surgery to correct my over and open bite caused by an underdeveloped lower jaw. From what I know, they will be doing both jaws, but I will find out exactly at my pre-op appointment in a few days. I may or may not post updates on that because there are already a lot of really good blogs out there following the recovery of this surgery. However, I will be posting updates of this "hair bootcamp" I'm doing starting tomorrow. About a month ago, I bleached the life out of my hair and I've been trying to nurse it back to health ever since. However, very little progress has been made. My hair still looks very dull, dry, and is very hard to manage. Using Pinterest, I have created a schedule to follow for 1 month with all sorts of awesome treatments. I'll be doing weekly updates to follow this. Other than that, nothing new is going on but I do hope that all of you are having a lovely summer. :)

Accutane Journey Update: Day 119 - The Final One

Holy shit guys, I'm done with Accutane!
I. Just. Took. My. Last. Pill.
I cannot believe that 4 months have already gone by and my skin is this clear! Okay let's do a full report.

Symptoms:
Dry everything (especially lips)
Hair thinning
Weird eczema-like rashes
Headaches
Backaches
General joint pain
Itchiness

Pictures! (Before and After Edition)

Left cheek lookin' all nice and majestic

 Right Cheek *small cheer*

and a final selfie ;)

So was it all worth it? The pain, struggle, and dryness? ABSO-FREAKIN'-LUTELY. Accutane has transformed my skin from an irritated, red, unpredictable nightmare to calm, clear, and beautiful skin. Yes, I still get pimples. But they are extremely small and go away very quickly. And they're normal zits; not inflamed, sore cysts. My overall skin has settled down to a much more neutral tone and my pores are practically invisible. Accutane has given me the confidence to look people in the face and it really has made me so much more comfortable with myself.

If you believe that your acne is bad or stubborn enough for Accutane, please contact a dermatologist and see what he can do for you! 

Thank you guys so much for following me through this and rooting for me. Please ask any questions through my blog about Accutane or just life in general. 

Now that I'm done with this, I will hopefully concentrate my blog on my daily life, photography, and anything else I want to share so be on the lookout for me.

See you guys later.

Accutane Journey Day 112: 16 Week Update

Hey guys! So guess what. It's my last fucking week on Accutane! Oh my god I'm so excited. My symptoms have been worsening (particularly in the dry skin and lips) but I haven't ha a zit in forever. Not to mention my skin is seriously soft and basically pore less. But not to brag. 

Right cheek

Left cheek

I forgot how freckley I was until now. It feels good to not have to spend 30 minutes in the morning applying layers of makeup to cover up my breakouts. And it feels really good not to spend an hour in front of a mirror every night going on a squeeze spree. Yessiree, I am (as of now anyway) free from acne and it feels great!

That's all for now guys! 

See you next week for my FINAL UPDATE!

Accutane Journey Day 106: 15 Week + 1 Day Update

Alrighty prom was very nice and a lot more fun than I expected! Here's a super cute pic of me and my boyfriend :)

Ooh so cute 

And the exciting news, I had great skin for prom! Here are the pics this week.

Right cheek

Left cheek and my not a hickey

Look at this skin. Look at it. I am so freaking proud of my skin. Thank you Accutane!

My lips have been more dry than usual this week, but it's all good because only two weeks of Accutane to go!

Get Ready With Me: Prom!

Good morning everybody! I woke up about an hour ago, and now I waiting to get my hair all fixed up. I would take a selfie but there are a couple of receptionists looking at me right now. But I will post one after my hair is all pretty. 

This is what I'm going for

Thank you Pinterest! 

Get Ready With Me: Prom!

Hair and makeup is done! 

Accurate Journey Day 100!: 14 Week + 2 Days Update

Ok I have a good reason for being late this time. I swear. I had to drive 6 hours away to go to Dallas for some doctor stuff that all contribute to my upcoming surgery which I promise will be the subject of my next post. But it's all ok because today conveniently is my 100th day anniversary of Accutane! ( yayyy) And even better, I only have three more weeks of Accutane left! ( YYAAAYYYYY) So this week was great for my left cheek, and as for my right cheek, I had small complications due to my period. However the small breakout was nothing to the, on average, 10 new period zits, usually including a cystic one. Also, prom is this Saturday! I will be doing multiple posts throughout the day as a sort of "get ready with me" thingy. Anyways, here are the pics!

Right cheek with minor hormonal breakout

 And left cheek. *applause*

Alrighty, see you guys soon! 

Accutane Journey Day 91: 13 Week Update

Happy Easter/420! Whichever you're celebrating. ;) This week was my so great for my skin! I broke out (really only 1 pimple though) and I think I know why. The Clarisonic. A few days after using it, I got a zit. So I'm going to put that aside for a bit and see if it gets any better. Maybe it jut irritates my skin and makes it all acne prone again. My scars however, are diminishing and my pores are basically gone, so I can't complain. 

Left cheek with new pimple.

Right cheek which looks pretty awesome.

IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT!

My little puppy tuned one years old on the 16th this past week. 

This is Charlie and he just makes me happy. 

That is all, I'll see you guys soon! 

Accutane Journey Day 89: WTF Rash

Alright so I hopped in the shower just a while ago and while I was showering, I noticed that my arms started burning. I looked down to find what I'm calling the "wtf rash" because I literally spring up out of nowhere. It doesn't itch. It doesn't burn (except in hot water). It just sits there looking awful. 

Like seriously. Ew. 

I'm not sure if this is an Accutane related rash but I'm assuming it is because my skin is not the sensitive/rash prone type. Anyways, I'm gonna put some Cortizone on this wtf rash and hope for the best. 

Accutane Journey Day 84: 12 Week Update

Applaud me guys, I actually posted my update on time. (Yayyyy) anyways this week was a super good week for my skin in more ways than one! I got a new organic hippie cleanser for my face and it works great! It doesn't dry skin out and it leaves it feeling super smooth and soft! I also was able to use my Clarisonic Mia (finally)! After about 2 years of not being able to use it because my acne was too bad, it's finally bust it out again! I love how it makes my skin pretty much poreless and extremely smooth. 

 Alright now for my skin. It looks great! I'm so excited for my last month of Accuatane! WAIT WHAT LAST MONTH? Yes 3 months have already gone by this fast! My last dermatologist appointment is tomorrow morning and I'm so happy that I don't have to take anymore pregnancy tests after tomorrow. Here's what I look like!

Right cheek 

Left cheek

OOTD

Fuzzy sweater on a col Monday <3

Exciting news

Alright guys, I'm going to prom.

I'm so excited! I'm not the get drunk and dance like a cheap stripper type, like most prom goers, but I'm happy that I can get dresses up, go eat at a fancy place, and hang out with my friends. Of course, I will be going with my boyfriend, his name is Brandt btw, and like 11 of my other friends. What I'm really excited about is the fact that I'm gonna have clear skin for prom! I don't even have to worry! I'll be posting throughout the day as a sort of "get ready with me" type of thing. 

Also, I have more good news... 

My new camera should be arriving in the mail tomorrow! I can't wait to finally be able to start taking pictures again! I'm hoping to start a whole photography page on this blog. I hope that doesn't bore you guys. This summer I plan to make a lot of music videos, short films, and things of that sort. It's something that I've wanted to do FOR EVER. 

Anyways thank you for listening to me blab about my life! See ya soon! 

Accutane Journey Day 77: 11 Week + 2 Days Update

Sorry guys I suck. Enough said. Anyways this week has been amazing in terms of skin clearance! I have like 1 scan because I'm horrible and any stop picking at my skin BUT it was incredibly hard to actually find something to pick who his awesome news! The only thing left on my face are some blackheads and a few minor scars but the blackheads are becoming few and the scars are fading fast! I go back for my last dermatologist appointment next Monday and I can't tell you how excited I am to be in my last month of Accutane! I can't believe it's been nearly 3 months already! Anyways, here are some pictures! 

Right cheek with pillow case markings (sorry about that, I just woke up)

And left cheek which looks great right now :) 

That's all for now guys :) 

Accutane Journey Day 72: 10 Week + 2 Days Update

Late again! Ugh sorry I suck so much! I had a real reason this time besides sprig breaking! I was in Dallas all weekend for medical reasons pertaining to my surgery that I occasionally mention. I'll give bunches of more details in another post. For now though, let's focus on Accutane!  Ok so this week has been super great and I decide to provide you guys pictures of the exact same shot but one with flash and one without. This way, you can see how my skin really looks in natural light. Enjoy!

Left cheek

Right cheek

Gross lips

Alright that's all for now! 

Accutane Journey Day 65: 9 Week + 2 Days Update

Sorry for the late post again! Honestly I just kept forgetting to do this thing and so it lead to being two days late. Anyways my skin is looking so much better! There are a few tiny zits and a few blackheads but other than that, NOTHING. My skin feels so incredibly soft and smooth too! My scars are surely fading away and I actually got a compliment on how good my skin looks. The best part is that my freckles can finely shine through because I barely put on any makeup now! See for yourself

Right cheek

Left cheek

Btw all of that red discoloration is scarring, not acne, AND you can hardly see it in regular light (without flash). 

That's it for now! See you guys next week :) 

OOTD

So I got this new blazer from H&M and I was just excited to show you guys :) 

Accutane Journey Day 58: 8 Week + 2 Days Update

Ok so this past month was pretty nice, and it feels good to say that I'm halfway done with Accutane! Which is nice because my lips are about to kill me with all if their flakiness and cracks. Anyways, sorry this post is 2 days late, I've been busy spring breaking and whatnot. Yesterday I went back to the dermatologist and he said that my skin is definately on the right track to clearing up. My cheeks keep going through peaks and valleys and just when I think it's clearing up, they break out again. My doctor said this is 100% normal due to the skin balancing back out again. He also said this month should be even better than the last. Which made me smile :). I mentioned a new regimine of sorts in my last post as an effort to speed track this clearing up, it's basically sleeping with tiny band aids on your face that either have neosprin or benzoyl peroxide on them. This actually worked very well and got rid of a lot of scabs and spots quickly. In addition to my regular routine, I have added Mederma Scar Gel. I've only been using it for a week and can already notice a big difference in my scars! Anyways, here are the pics!

 Right cheek which has recently been victimized to my picking. (Damn me)

Left cheek which looks pretty awesome right now.

My oh so painful lips

And this lovely stuff

That's all for now!

Accutane Journey Day 52: Weird Rashes and On A Mission

Well friends, spring break starts next week for me and I'm hoping for generally clear skin by then, however I have more issues with my regular skin than my acne right now. Besides dryness, I have another weird symptom.

This is a picture of my knee along with it's little companion. To me this looks like psoriasis but I don't really know. The weird thing is, I'll only get one of these at a time, and they're never in the same spot. This is my 4th one already so I'm not too worried because 1. They're tiny and 2. They clear up quickly. Another skin issue is this pretty gross roughness all over my arms complete with some red bumps. 

You can't tell super well in the picture, mainly because it's hard to see. And I would just put lotion on my sandpaper arms, but any kind of lotion burns and makes my skin red, swollen, and itchy. I'll probably pick up some cortizone or something and see if that helps. 

So I'm on a mission, as I said above. I want my skin to be significantly clearer by Saturday. And then almost totally clear by Wednesday. Because there are mostly scabs and scars on my face, I'm doing a little regimine that I will show you guys (if it ends up working). And as for pimples, there are literally about 5 right now, and they are all either whiteheads or blackheads. This is pretty amazing compared to the 60+ That I counted whenever I started Accutane. 

Well that's all for now! Hasta La Vista